New Beginnings and Adventures

So it's official, on August 27th, I will be travelling to Florida to start the 2 years of dancing adventures. 

Just less than a month away and I'll be out of the country :) 

I'll be travelling with my 3 best friends, Chelsea, Joey and Alex, my brother and my daughter. I honestly cannot wait! 

We can't visit home anytime we want and we have set holiday time which is fine by me as people are still allowed to come and visit if they are able to. 

We've also got to look for our own apartments and ways to travel, we're going to have 2 cars between us and all live in the same place, but it's all paid for which is great. So we've got to start apartment hunting soon and decide about those within the next 2 weeks which I'm really excited about. 

Over the 2 years, we'll be in New York, Florida, Brisbane and Toronto. I use to live in Brisbane and still have my house there so we'll all live together in that. 

It's going to be strange not seeing everyone everyday but the most important people will be with me :) 

Anyway these are my dates of places: 

Aug 27th 2013 - Go to Florida

Sept 27th 2013 - Go to NYC

Dec 1st 2013 - Holidays (Christmas) 

Jan 5th 2014 - Go to Brisbane

May 16th 2014 - Holidays

June 6th 2014 - Go to Florida

Aug 14th 2014 - Holidays

Sept 2nd 2014 - Go to Toronto

Dec 2nd 2014 - Holidays (Christmas) 

Jan 4th 2015 - Go to Brisbane

Aug 20th 2015 - 2 years finished 

It's all pretty spread out so we still get loads of time to come back and visit people which makes it a lot easier. 

After those 2 years I will find the right place to settle down so that I can start looking at schools for my daughter. No doubt it'll probably still be Wales but I did use to love living in Brisbane. 

Anyway until then I've got loads to plan and get sorted! But one things for sure, I cannot wait to go! 

Forever Alone?

Okay, so the title is slightly misleading because I'm not some depressive girl who believes that they're gonna be forever alone but for the time being I am alone, well single anyway.

From when I first started dating boys to now, there hasn't really been a time where I've been single for a long period of time, I just didn't like being on my own with my own company so I really didn't like breaking up with people.

I got into my first serious relationship when I was about 17 which lasted properly for about 2 years, then up until late last year it was very on/off. During the 4 years I was with him, I'd gotten engaged to him twice, nearly married him once and had a baby with him, pretty hectic 4 years if you ask me! So when we split up for the final time, it was obviously very strange for me to be on my own as a single mum.

A month or so after I got into another relationship which lasted 5 and a bit months, up until recently when I ended it for various reasons.

I never usually end relationships but after my holiday and talking to my best girl friends, I realised that I've never actually spent more than 2 months on my own and at the age of 21 I don't really know myself. So for the time being I'm going to enjoy being single and being a Mum to my daughter before I actually settle down with 'the one'. I want to be able to experience things without having to feel guilty about it, obviously I won't sleep around every night but if I want to have sex with someone I like, then I bloody well will.

Up until now, I've pretty much looked out for other people and always done what other people want me to do but now I'm gonna be a little bit selfish and do my own thing. Obviously I can't be too selfish because I'm a Mum.

Things may have not exactly gone to plan recently as I've ended up hurting someone in the process as well as sleeping with my best friend, but these things happen and I'm not gonna say I regret it because I'd be lying. I could have approached it differently but thats all in the past now.

Within the next month or so, I'll be flying to America and spending the next 2 years travelling and dancing, which is what I want to do. If I spend those 2 years single then so be it, if I find a guy I like abroad then fine. What will be, will be. All I know is I'm making sure I stay single for at least 6 months and that in itself will be an achievement I'll be proud of doing for myself and it'll make me realise what I actually do want.

In the meantime, I've got my best friends, family and most importantly my daughter, and they're not gonna ditch me because of my decisions which is why I love them. I'm doing this for me and no one else.

So until then I will be alone, but not forever.

Ayia Napa Holiday

Well I have literally only been back in Wales for a day or so now after being on holiday for 10 days. I am completely exhausted but its so worth it.

Honestly, it was the best holiday I have been on in my whole entire life, I couldn't of asked to of spent it with better people then I did. I had forgotten how beautiful Ayia Napa was and the fact it was so so hot was just perfect!

 As it was an end of an era holiday, we made it out to be the best it possibly could. On our very last night we all had our last 'family meal' together and even exchanged a few tears between the group as we realised we were all growing up :(

Originally it was only meant to be about 15 of us going but some of our friends were already out there so we all met up together :)


We basically all spent the 10 days together doing all kinds of things like going to water parks, boat parties, UV parties, bungee jumping, zoo parks, sunbathing, and of course.. drinking loads! Although on the very first night, we headed to Kandi Beach and saw Wiley etc, that was incredible! It was also 2 of my friends birthdays, Emily and Joey, so we celebrated it in style!




Pretty much everyone had set each other a challenge to get it on with anybody that they could, I managed to get a photo of my friend, Jess, getting it on and having the time of her life hahahaha.




There was not one day when we weren't drinking so I'm sure I'll need a few days recovery for my liver. They did the most amazing blue lagoon drinks though!



We managed to take a few photos whilst we were there but it wasn't our main priority, having fun was!
I exchanged photos with everyone so I have a selection now to make a photo album full of them.

If I could then I would do it all over again, I had the time of my life and now its back to reality and planning for the future, scary shit!

I'll leave you with a few photo's of the trip, some are slightly embarrassing and were obviously taken whilst drunk, enjoy!

Ayia Napa

A very last minute decision was made to go to Ayia Napa for a last minute holiday.

It'll be the last holiday I go on with all my best friends so it's like an end of an era which makes it quite sad really. Originally it was just going to be all the girls going, but then the lads decided to join which means there will be someone to look after us when we're pissed!

We're off for 10 days and go from the 16th July to the 26th July which means we will also catch the Eskimo Dance on Kandi Beach.
It's also good timing as it's Cockers 21st birthday and Joey's 23rd, everyones growing up!

I'm really looking forward to going and just getting a break from everything thats been going on lately.

I'll be doing another blog post about it when i'm back :)