End Of Week Three.

So this week was when I properly started teaching classes and to be perfectly honest I was totally bricking it! 

This week I've basically lived in trackies and hoodies so I've been looking like an absolute chav all the time!

I've been teaching some classes with either Chelsea, Alex or Joey and then I've been doing some on my own. It's really not as scary as I thought it'd be and I've actually really enjoyed it this week. 

I've been teaching 14+ and the amount of talent I've seen is actually unreal. 

This week I've also been doing some pole dancing lessons on the side as that's what I'll be teaching sometimes in New York. Literally it takes so much upper body strength so by the time it gets to Christmas I'm definitely gonna be stronger than I was before I came here. I really enjoy it though and I'm even tempted to buy a pole for my house in Wales just so I can keep practicing whilst I'm not out here. 

I am quite excited to go back home at Christmas and see everyone, especially my boyfriend. Christmas for me is like the time where everyone is in a couple and all loved up and this year I will be so I'm looking forward to it :) 

I go to New York on Friday which is where I'll be for the rest of my time up until December. On Saturday my little girl is finally coming to stay with me, safe to say I've missed her the most and I can't wait to see her! 

Today is my day off and tomorrow is a reset day which involves doing loads of fitness so I'm going to be knackered! 

So far I'm glad I've done this as I'm really enjoying it and I'm not as home sick as I thought I'd be, I just can't wait to get to New York now! 

End Of Week Two.

So this week has definitely been the hardest week ever. I've had ridiculously early mornings and late nights so I am totally exhausted. 

I've finally got my timetable for the rest of my time in Florida so at least I can plan things for days off and everything. Also I can have the odd night out which I shall look forward too! 

So basically everyday this week I've been down at the dance studio preparing choreography for classes and doing fitness. Honestly from start to finish I've been sweating like a bitch and it's made me realise I didn't go to the gym enough before I came out here! By Christmas I can guarantee I will have toned up so much and may even be on my way to getting some proper abs. On the plus side it means I can eat as much as I want when I get back home! 

We threw our first American house party last night, red cups included! It was pretty fun and didn't finish until 3am! 

Today has been my day off so I've basically been nursing a hangover by the pool and we also went to Florida Mall to do some shopping. In a little bit were going to The Olive Garden for dinner, that is honestly the nicest place in the world. The food is all Italian based and absolutely lush. 

So far I'm not missing home too much and it seems to be going really quickly being here. In less than two weeks ill be with my little girl and seeing my sister so I'm counting down the days! 

This next week should be more relaxed and I'm looking forward to actually teaching my own classes. I'm shitting it for tomorrow but I'm sure once I get into the swing of things ill be fine!

End Of Week One.

So I've decided to write a weekly post now because I won't have time to do anymore throughout the week. 

I've been in Florida now a week and if I'm honest this week has actually flown by. It feels like I was only getting on the plane yesterday. 

To kick the week off we all got 3 day Disney World tickets and went to all the parks. It was pretty tiring considering they are absolutely massive to walk round and we had early starts and late nights. 

We've also been round some of the malls out here and it's safe to say I've already spent a ridiculous amount of money on makeup and converse but it's cheaper here than it is in England, that's my excuse anyway! 

During the week our villa and it's estate had a power cut for about 5 hours, luckily it was still daylight but it was still bloody annoying! 

We've been out a few nights this week to meet up with the other dancers and to get to know the area better. Universal City Walk is my favourite place to go at the minute as its got some really cute bars and clubs. On our next day off hopefully we'll get a Universal Studios ticket so we can go there for a day and I also really really want to go to Harry Potter World again! 

Tomorrow is when things get serious and I start my training for all the dance classes and then later in the week I will actually start teaching! I'm excited but nervous about it because I don't want to fuck up. 

Next week will also mean I can't talk to people back home 24/7 like I have been doing. After being split up for just over a month, I am now back with my boyfriend and honestly I'm happier than ever. The break made me realise that I want to be with him forever and honestly I just love him to bits. These next few months will be a proper test for us but I'm willing to go through that. 

I get a bit jealous of watching Chelsea and Alex be all soppy together all the time and talking about their wedding, but at the end of the day, there are a lot of people out here who have relationships back at home and are missing their other halfs so we're all in the same boat. 

I want to carry on doing this and I'm not going to give up like I thought I would. It may be early days on the program but I'm looking forward to what the future holds and all the new people I'm going to meet! 

Bring it on! :D 

Finally Made It!

So I am writing this post in Kissimmee, Florida. It feels so surreal being here and I don't think it's properly sunk in yet. I am still ridiculously jet lagged so I'm waking up at like 4/5 in the morning over here. 

This week is just for all of us chilling out and getting ready for the next few weeks. So we got ourselves a 3 day pass for Disney World to make the most of it :) 

I'm glad I'm over here with the people that I am because they've helped me to kind of take my mind off stuff back home, I'm especially glad that my little brother is here with me too! 

Yesterday was the first day that we went to Disney and it has become Joey, Connor and Alex's aim to embarrass me and Chelsea at any opportunity they can get, whether it's blaming us for farting, play fighting with each other or their new favourite, doing their own version of 'bogies' but instead with the word vagina or bumhole. Considering they are 23, 22 and 17 (nearly 18) they're immature divs that have left me and Chelsea cringing and running away from them on multiple occasions! They also like running round the supermarkets in trollies and nearly crashing into things/people. I can tell that this trip will clearly be full of fun and games! 

Tonight we've all decided to go out to celebrate being here and meeting up with other people too, so we'll be going to the House of Blues for some cocktails. Hopefully staying out late will sort my jet lag out so I can sleep!! 

Anyway I won't bore you with anymore so yeah, have a nice day/night where ever you may be :) 

Today is the Day

So today is the day that I'll travel down to Gatwick and stay at a hotel so I'm all ready for the 11:15 flight tomorrow morning. This week has gone so fast and been full of so much. 

To end my last day in Wales until Christmas, I've decided that today ill spend it totally with family. So later, me and a few others are going to go and see the new One Direction film (yes I love them) and then have dinner at my Mum's later for a final goodbye meal and then off to the airport it is!

I'm all packed and ready to go so at least I don't have to stress all about that. 

The main thing I'm panicking about is how Faith is going to react when I say bye bye. It's crazy that after today I won't see her until the end of September, saying I'm going to miss her will be an understatement! Her Dad has been surprisingly nice recently and we've been getting on really well, he even gave me a letter the other day apologising for everything etc which I thought was quite nice. It certainly doesn't mean I'd get back with him though, leaving Wales is also closing the book on my whole relationship with him too which I'm definitely ready for, although he'll still fly out sometimes to see Faith. He's become a lot of a better Dad lately and sorted his life out. 

Today will definitely be full of emotional goodbyes but if there is ever a time where I desperately want to come back then I am allowed 3 weeks personal leave each year I'm on the program so at least I can use some of that. 

I've also been single for just a little over a month now but I don't even know if that really counts anymore because the way me and my ex talk its like we haven't even split up really. Just have to see if things change once I'm away. 

I'm honestly scared about going but I'm got my best friends so I'm sure ill be fine. I'm excited and nervous about going so until I get there I won't know what to expect. 

Wish me luck! 

Beginning of a New Life

So I haven't blogged for a while now because I've been busy packing boxes ready to go away and I also had a mini break to Maga with some friends that I hadn't seen for absolutely ages. 

Since my time in Cardiff is coming to an end pretty soon, I'm getting all emotional recently about leaving everyone behind when I go in a weeks time. 

All my family came together today for lunch and it was amazing to see everyone together, I won't get that again now until Christmas :(  There are so many people I'm going to miss when I go. 

Realising earlier that today marks a month of me being single has also hit me , although I still talk to my ex boyfriend a hell of a lot, because quite frankly I'm very much in love with him. As the term goes 'right love, wrong timing' I think that definitely applies to my situation right now. 

Since my daughter won't be joining me until the end of September, I am absolutely gutted because I'm going to miss her so so much but at least I'll have my brother with me from the very beginning. 

I am looking forward to starting my new adventure even though I'm upset about leaving people behind, but whatever happens is just meant to be. Ill get to meet some incredible people during the next 2 years and finally get to follow my dream. 

Obviously ill keep writing weekly updates of how everything is going whilst I'm away. It's crazy that I've only got a week left here and then bam, gone for 2 years. 

The Conjuring

So tonight I'm going to see a horror film called The Conjuring, I am absolutely shitting myself to be honest. I have read loads of things about it saying its the scariest horror film of the year, it's even worse because its based on true events!

I love going to see horror films and I love scaring myself but I hate going home afterwards because I think that every single thing is out to get me or that something is watching me. 

The worst thing about going is that I've just found out that I'm going to be home alone tonight, I am absolutely crapping my pants now! Honestly I will not sleep one bit, I'm going to try and get someone to stay over but I don't think anyone will :( 

Ill write a review on it later once I've seen it :) 

Whatever the future holds..

Over the past few days, I've come to the conclusion that I should not be left on my own for a long period of time because it causes me to overthink a huge amount. I usually see Joey if I'm bored but we've had a bit of an argument over the past few days, boys do cause so much drama! I also get ridiculously bored which means I write these blog posts which are most probably a load of rubbish.

Anyway, I've been thinking a lot about the future and mainly the wonder of who I'm gonna spend the rest of my life with. Its a really girly thought but still, I'm allowed to have those once in a while. Honestly, I do have a lot of growing up to do before I actually settle down because quite frankly, I still act like a 16 year old sometimes.

I do miss being in a relationship, but I know being on my own for a bit will help me out in the long run and I'm gonna prove to myself that I am able to do this. If I see a couple holding hands or whatever in the street, I get a sudden surge of jealousy but I think that's pretty normal for girls. I am quite scared being on my own, I'm not too sure why but I am. I've been watching loads of chick flicks which probably hasn't helped either but I'm also forcing my brothers to watch them with me tomorrow too which I'm sure they will love.

I'm glad I've got such a good relationship with my brothers, they do annoy the hell out of me sometimes, especially because I live with one of them, but when it comes down to it they'd do anything for me and they are great Uncles too.

I'm rambling on about such random stuff but I am seriously so so bored, I literally have nothing to do, its just a waiting game up until I go to Florida now, which has now been changed to 1st September!

I am looking forward to it, but I am gonna miss a few people so much, it'll definitely put a few relationships to the test!

My Bucket List

So recently I've been thinking of all the things that I want to accomplish before I die, some are pretty big things and then other things can be completed easily. I think creating a bucket list allows you to achieve more things in your life which is exactly why I'm doing it. I've looked at other bucket list in order to get some inspiration for mine, some peoples are pretty out there!

Anyway, here is mine, its fairly long so I've got a lot to accomplish!

1. Kiss in the Rain
2. Drive a Jet-ski
3. Walk on the Great Wall of China
4. Spend Valentine's Day in Paris
5. Get Married
6. Own an Audi
7. Drive in an Audi R8
8. Spend NYE in New York
9. Own a House
10. Have 3 Children in total
11. Meet Emily Sassoon
12. See a Shooting Star
13. Go to Sydney
14. Do the Colour Run
15. Get a Dog
16. Dip dye my hair
17. Go to Niagara Falls
18. Go to Harry Potter Studios
19. Go to Madame Tussaud's
20. Buy a Juicy Couture tracksuit
21. Get my nose pierced
22. Get another matching tattoo
23. Kiss under the mistletoe
24. Go on a Road Trip
25. Go to Newcastle
26. Jump into a pool fully clothed
27. Write a book
28. See the Grand Canyon
29. Go to Ireland for St Patrick's Day
30. See my children get married
31. Go to Mardi Gras
32. Be a Maid of Honour
33. Go dog sledding
34. Be proposed to
35. Make a rainbow cake
36. Move in with someone I love
37. Eat at Nando's
38. Go paint balling
39. Spend July 4th in America
40. Scuba Dive on The Great Barrier Reef
41. Slow Dance in the Kitchen
42. Ride a Camel
43. Have sex in a car
44. Kiss with popping candy
45. Go to Las Vegas
46. Attend a Baseball Game
47. Go to all 7 Continents
48. Eat Pasta in Italy
49. Read every Nicholas Sparks book
50. Be genuinely happy
51. Lay under the stars with someone I love
52. Kiss underwater
53. Have my kids grow up in a happy, stable family unit
54. Go to Bora Bora
55. Go on holiday as a couple
56. Go Ice- skating
57. Get over my fear of thunderstorms
58. Put a padlock on the love bridge in Paris
59. Go to a drive in cinema
60. See Cirque Du Soleil

Hopefully I'll be able to do all of these by the time I die, I don't think its too difficult (I hope!)

2am Blog Post

So this blog post doesn't really mean anything, I'm just bored because I'm home alone. 

I hate being home alone, it freaks me out, I always think there's something in the dark so I have to keep like every single light on so I don't freak out as much. I'm so glad that I haven't been to see The Conjuring yet which is apparently really scary, so I'm pleased that I didn't see it last night. 

My best friend, Chelsea, came over for the weekend and went back home earlier today, my brother is staying at his girlfriends and my daughter is at her Dad's. I literally asked so many people to come over but everyone's busy and has work tomorrow which sucks. 

I'm 21 years old and can't even handle a night by myself, it's so stupid. All I've been doing is literally watching repeats of Geordie Shore, Teen Mom and 90210. I even created a HUGE list of things I wanna do before i die, a bucket list, which I'll probably put up on here later this week. 

Also being on my own makes me overthink every single situation in my life, even stuff from like 5 years ago. I've realised how much I miss my most recent ex which kinda sucks but we still talk which is good cause I couldn't imagine my life without him now. 

I am really tired now so I should probably go to bed but I want a cuddle buddy to come keep me safe. 

This is probably really boring to read but I'm bored so its keeping me occupied xo

New Beginnings and Adventures

So it's official, on August 27th, I will be travelling to Florida to start the 2 years of dancing adventures. 

Just less than a month away and I'll be out of the country :) 

I'll be travelling with my 3 best friends, Chelsea, Joey and Alex, my brother and my daughter. I honestly cannot wait! 

We can't visit home anytime we want and we have set holiday time which is fine by me as people are still allowed to come and visit if they are able to. 

We've also got to look for our own apartments and ways to travel, we're going to have 2 cars between us and all live in the same place, but it's all paid for which is great. So we've got to start apartment hunting soon and decide about those within the next 2 weeks which I'm really excited about. 

Over the 2 years, we'll be in New York, Florida, Brisbane and Toronto. I use to live in Brisbane and still have my house there so we'll all live together in that. 

It's going to be strange not seeing everyone everyday but the most important people will be with me :) 

Anyway these are my dates of places: 

Aug 27th 2013 - Go to Florida

Sept 27th 2013 - Go to NYC

Dec 1st 2013 - Holidays (Christmas) 

Jan 5th 2014 - Go to Brisbane

May 16th 2014 - Holidays

June 6th 2014 - Go to Florida

Aug 14th 2014 - Holidays

Sept 2nd 2014 - Go to Toronto

Dec 2nd 2014 - Holidays (Christmas) 

Jan 4th 2015 - Go to Brisbane

Aug 20th 2015 - 2 years finished 

It's all pretty spread out so we still get loads of time to come back and visit people which makes it a lot easier. 

After those 2 years I will find the right place to settle down so that I can start looking at schools for my daughter. No doubt it'll probably still be Wales but I did use to love living in Brisbane. 

Anyway until then I've got loads to plan and get sorted! But one things for sure, I cannot wait to go! 

Forever Alone?

Okay, so the title is slightly misleading because I'm not some depressive girl who believes that they're gonna be forever alone but for the time being I am alone, well single anyway.

From when I first started dating boys to now, there hasn't really been a time where I've been single for a long period of time, I just didn't like being on my own with my own company so I really didn't like breaking up with people.

I got into my first serious relationship when I was about 17 which lasted properly for about 2 years, then up until late last year it was very on/off. During the 4 years I was with him, I'd gotten engaged to him twice, nearly married him once and had a baby with him, pretty hectic 4 years if you ask me! So when we split up for the final time, it was obviously very strange for me to be on my own as a single mum.

A month or so after I got into another relationship which lasted 5 and a bit months, up until recently when I ended it for various reasons.

I never usually end relationships but after my holiday and talking to my best girl friends, I realised that I've never actually spent more than 2 months on my own and at the age of 21 I don't really know myself. So for the time being I'm going to enjoy being single and being a Mum to my daughter before I actually settle down with 'the one'. I want to be able to experience things without having to feel guilty about it, obviously I won't sleep around every night but if I want to have sex with someone I like, then I bloody well will.

Up until now, I've pretty much looked out for other people and always done what other people want me to do but now I'm gonna be a little bit selfish and do my own thing. Obviously I can't be too selfish because I'm a Mum.

Things may have not exactly gone to plan recently as I've ended up hurting someone in the process as well as sleeping with my best friend, but these things happen and I'm not gonna say I regret it because I'd be lying. I could have approached it differently but thats all in the past now.

Within the next month or so, I'll be flying to America and spending the next 2 years travelling and dancing, which is what I want to do. If I spend those 2 years single then so be it, if I find a guy I like abroad then fine. What will be, will be. All I know is I'm making sure I stay single for at least 6 months and that in itself will be an achievement I'll be proud of doing for myself and it'll make me realise what I actually do want.

In the meantime, I've got my best friends, family and most importantly my daughter, and they're not gonna ditch me because of my decisions which is why I love them. I'm doing this for me and no one else.

So until then I will be alone, but not forever.

Ayia Napa Holiday

Well I have literally only been back in Wales for a day or so now after being on holiday for 10 days. I am completely exhausted but its so worth it.

Honestly, it was the best holiday I have been on in my whole entire life, I couldn't of asked to of spent it with better people then I did. I had forgotten how beautiful Ayia Napa was and the fact it was so so hot was just perfect!

 As it was an end of an era holiday, we made it out to be the best it possibly could. On our very last night we all had our last 'family meal' together and even exchanged a few tears between the group as we realised we were all growing up :(

Originally it was only meant to be about 15 of us going but some of our friends were already out there so we all met up together :)


We basically all spent the 10 days together doing all kinds of things like going to water parks, boat parties, UV parties, bungee jumping, zoo parks, sunbathing, and of course.. drinking loads! Although on the very first night, we headed to Kandi Beach and saw Wiley etc, that was incredible! It was also 2 of my friends birthdays, Emily and Joey, so we celebrated it in style!




Pretty much everyone had set each other a challenge to get it on with anybody that they could, I managed to get a photo of my friend, Jess, getting it on and having the time of her life hahahaha.




There was not one day when we weren't drinking so I'm sure I'll need a few days recovery for my liver. They did the most amazing blue lagoon drinks though!



We managed to take a few photos whilst we were there but it wasn't our main priority, having fun was!
I exchanged photos with everyone so I have a selection now to make a photo album full of them.

If I could then I would do it all over again, I had the time of my life and now its back to reality and planning for the future, scary shit!

I'll leave you with a few photo's of the trip, some are slightly embarrassing and were obviously taken whilst drunk, enjoy!

Ayia Napa

A very last minute decision was made to go to Ayia Napa for a last minute holiday.

It'll be the last holiday I go on with all my best friends so it's like an end of an era which makes it quite sad really. Originally it was just going to be all the girls going, but then the lads decided to join which means there will be someone to look after us when we're pissed!

We're off for 10 days and go from the 16th July to the 26th July which means we will also catch the Eskimo Dance on Kandi Beach.
It's also good timing as it's Cockers 21st birthday and Joey's 23rd, everyones growing up!

I'm really looking forward to going and just getting a break from everything thats been going on lately.

I'll be doing another blog post about it when i'm back :)

Family Life

Hey there :)

I didn't really know what to do for a second post so I thought I'd write about something that only happened a couple of days ago.

I became an Auntie for the 9th time on Friday! My older sister, Tinikka, had her 3rd child which was a little boy who her and her husband have named Hayden James, he is the cutest thing I have ever seen. He is one of the coolest babies around as he's got a Monsters Inc and Batman baby grow.

With a new baby being in the family, it makes me want to have another one but then I remember how much I have going on in my life at the moment. My main reason is the fact that I ideally want to have been with someone for a few years before having another baby. 

Its crazy how much my family is growing, my other older sister has recently become pregnant with her first child and she is ridiculously scared about it and she's nearly 28! 

I don't know what I'd do without my family, they annoy me a ridiculous amount sometimes but I know that they'll always be there for me and I wouldn't swap them for anything.

Dance Opportunity

Hi guys :)
I thought for my first blog post I'd write about a recent experience of mine.

A couple of months ago, back in February, I was offered an amazing opportunity to be a dance teacher abroad for 2 years. In order to get this job, I had to complete an audition. When I was first offered the audition, I was a bit hit and miss about it because if I was successful, it meant leaving my family and I had also just found out that my Mum had cancer which made me think about things a lot differently. In the end, it was her that convinced me to pursue my dream and she told me that life was too short and that I should follow my dream. So with that in mind, I travelled to New York with my 3 best friends, Chelsea, Joey & Alex, who had also been offered the same as me, to partake in the auditions. They took place over 3

days, this allowed 2 days to rehearse dances and 1 to actually perform them. We all decided to go for 5 days so that we had change to see the sights on NYC.

We had to learn 5 different sets of choreography, 3 hip hop styles, 1 ballet and 1 group.


Since I was 17, my dance partner has always been my friend Joey, so we were together during these routines which made it a lot easier for me because we had to perform lifts and more technical things which needed a lot of trust. Chelsea and Alex are also dance partners and are also together.

The 2 days of rehearsals were so intense and I have no idea how I managed to get through them on such little sleep. When the performance day came around, I was ridiculously nervous and felt so sick. Each group of 2 was called in one by one and given a 10 minute slot. There were about 20 people in total on the audition. After the audition, I was fairly confident because I hadn't messed up during it which I thought I would have done. We weren't going to be told until later on in the week if we'd got the job or not. So everyone flew home and then the next few days were just a waiting game. About 5 days later, I got an email from the organiser, Karen, saying that I'd been successful! :)
Because I got through, that also meant Joey had and I also found out Chelsea and Alex were too!

Until recently, I hadn't heard much from Karen but this summer is the start of the adventure. The 4 of us can travel round and work together. We have chosen to split the next 2 years in Miami, Brisbane and Hong Kong. I'll be taking my daughter and my brother with me so I shall at least have some family around me all the time. It'll be difficult because I won't be able to visit anytime I like, probably only a few times a year, but it'll be worth the opportunities that will come my way. Its a scary experience but I'm looking forward to it.

This is probably a really shit first blog post but you've gotta start somewhere!